Keeping it Positive

Today I took a bike ride with tunes in my ears and reflected on the past couple of weeks. Having a more set schedule has really allowed me to not worry so much about work and focus more on myself, my family, and my life outside of work. I'm also off on the weekends when everyone else tends to have off, so I am able to make it to more family functions. It is a blessing and a curse. I get to see my family more often, but it gets expensive and exhausting traveling. It has gotten easier to say no to not going somewhere simply because I do not want to. I use to say things to myself such as, "What if they get upset because I do not want to go, I should make up some excuse." Now, I simply just say no and give the real reason because it shouldn't matter. I would rather be 'real' than be the person who makes excuses. Ok, off subject a bit... back to reflection. 

I have learned a few things about myself over the years since my anxiety started. For example, I thought that I do not adapt well. What I have come to realize though is that I have had a lot of adapting to do over the years that most do not endure. I have moved for various reasons 7 times in the past 8 years. Not many people do that. Instead of saying to myself that I do not understand why I don't adapt well to change, I look at the fact that I have been through a lot. I still have a job and we aren't struggling, our lives have actually improved over the years financially and functionally. As long as I can look at what I thought were flaws in my personality in a positive light will give me more confidence to get through the days I find myself struggling. 

Another reflection is on my health and what I can do to improve it. My main focus is on my doing what makes me feel good. I have not had the appetite I did last year while trying to gain weight. I have actually lost all the weight I had gained last year. It is ok though, I do not feel bad being the weight I am. I know what I need to do. I have added some supplements back into my diet to add some nutrients I haven't been getting. I do feel better with them. 

My goal is to be able to take it one day at a time without getting impatient when I have hard days. Also, to keep it light and positive. Enjoy the little things. Everyone is given trials, but what makes you strong is how you choose to overcome them. 

That's it for now,
Until next time.